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I should write something creative here. I'll attempt it tomorrow. I have an idea on something. I just don't have the energy to try and express it now. Hopefully, it won't be depressing... Well, too depressing at least.

Poetry

I've never been any good at poetry.

I could write line after line, couplet after couplet, and not come up with something meaningful. I'm just not that great at expressing myself through metaphysical means. Well, at least through the art of poetry.

I've tried writing it before, but it never felt right. For me, it just seemed like a few lines jotted down on a screen or paper that didn't really make much sense. Most of the time, it didn't portray what I was trying to explain anyway. It's supposed to be about feeling and expression, but it mostly wound up as crap.

I'm not saying that I don't like poetry. I do. I've always like Shakespeare's Sonnets, even some Robert Frost and e e cummings are good every once and a while. I just don't think it's easy to express oneself through poetry, at least not expressed well.

I should probably just sit down and write some awful poetry, just to do it. I should give an example on how bad I truly am at it. I'll probably compose something when I can think of something worth expressing. Right now, I don't know what's going on to express it. Then again, confusion could be a poem, right?

Personality Tests

Sometimes, I get bored with the internet and I can't watch television. Therefore, I need things to distract me while I await my turn on the idiot box. Usually, that consists of reading random crap, but tonight I went for the Personality Tests.

Here it goes...

INTP - "Architect". Greatest precision in thought and language. Can readily discern contradictions and inconsistencies. The world exists primarily to be understood. 3.3% of total population.

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I also was...

INFP - "Questor". High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world. High sense of honor derived from internal values. 4.4% of total population.

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That's what I get for breaking a dead 50% in each of the Thinking and Feeling categories.

Other stuff...

Main type	Variant

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Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||| 56% Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||| 53% Type 3 Image Awareness |||||||||||||||| 63% Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76% Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||| 56% Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||| 86% Type 7 Adventurousness |||||| 26% Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||| 33% Type 9 Calmness |||||||||| 40% Your main type is 6 Your variant is self pres

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I guess it's safe to say that i am usually anxious.

Tempest

I don't write here anymore. I probably should. Still, it's not like people actually read this drivel.

For the most part, I have had plenty of things to write about. I just lack the courage and fortitude to actually put them down. I'm afraid of what I might say. Of how what I write will be interpreted and manipulated into something it isn't.

My feelings are a tempest raging on the sea of loneliness. I shift tides and sink lower all the time. I also reach the eye of the storm and feel calm. I don't know what or how I feel.

Is it love? Is it desire? I'm not sure.

I know I feel something. I just can't say it. The words are there, at the tip of my tongue and fingertips. Nothing is said for fear of response.

I am the great destroyer. Yet, I don't want to hurt anything. The balance and status quo are maintained so that I can become comfortable in where I am. Things change, and I am unsettled. I rock the foundation more. Wallowing in my own fears and supposed desires. What should I feel?

I feel something. It's both good and bad. I want the badness to morph into pleasentries. The good can stay.

There is something or someone that I love, but fear holds me back. I rationalize nothing will ever happen. I shrink. I turn away from everything because I trap myself in worry.

I have to realize something. Things will get better. I have to make some changes. Maybe, with luck and love someone else will make changes too.

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I haven't been here in a while. I've ben ignoring you. I'm sorry. I just haven't been that creative with more than a few words lately. I am a bad writer.